missing

I miss
the sweetness of his notes.

The innocence
The ridiculous extravagance
Dinosaurs
and
More Dinosaurs
on my shopping lists.

"Beautiful"
on the backside of
a bill we did not
even open.
In such a deliberate,
careful script.

Even his notes to me
should look fine.

I found one today,
in a book -
I had forgotten it was there

I savor
(even now)
the soft lines,
the most honest kind of affection
anyone could ever give me.

I am so sorry.
I did not know how
to appreciate the perfect,
complete gift
of such plain expressions
of love.